was a night that i don't remember much.
i remembered getting there, & i remember who i was w.
& unfortunately i remember what i said & did.


i've realized i can't be one of those people who 'drinks the pain away' . that shits retarded & drinking's not the way to go. sure you feel all bubbly& extroverted and happy, but to the sober people, you look like an immature ass who can't control their liquor. usually, i can control my drinking & contain myself, but last night was a night that i couldn't do none of that period .



i wannna be straightedge ASAP. whatta strange night to make up w. Jenn. oh & also? you know how people show their true colors when they're scared? same as when they're drunk. some are assholes, who won't help you in need & they'll just watch you make a fool outta yourself and not even hold your hair back when you puke - not saying i puked, cause im not a puker w. alcohol . i take damn good pride on pickingup a bestfriend when she's puked all over herself & i just wish other people would do the same.


i don't regret anything lastnight. but i feel like shit.